Cheers to 2010

I have decided that this year has to be better than the last two. I refuse to be discontent. Instead, I will rejoice in the Lord and what He has done (Phil 4; 1 Peter 2:23). I have decided that I will attempt to seek Him with all of my heart and I trust that if I seek, I will find (Matt 7?), that if I abide in Him and walk in His ways (1 Jn 2:6), that I will be content. People say that the Lord gives you the desires of your heart, and they are right-He has given us His Son! I know that it is Him-Jesus Christ crucified that the soul longs for. My soul longs for the richest of foods (Ps 63). Yet the world petitions for my desires and my motives. I refuse to succumb to the devil's schemes without a fight (1 Pet 5:7), for I know that the heavenly forces and they Almighty are so much greater than any worldly element. This year, I will make love, humility, zeal and perseverance in Him my priorities. My greatest desire is to commune with the living God as much as possible. I know that this takes self-denial, discipline and endurance. I confess that I have not even come close to maintaining this kind of devotion. I am ashamed to admit how little I have given, how small I have made Him. My minimal acts that supposedly characterize a follower of Him are no longer good enough for me to live by. Spurgeon says that to live apart from Him is pure misery but to walk with Him is like Heaven. I know that following Him requires much more than I have been giving. He requires EVERYTHING. He deserves my daily devotion and submission, the laying down of my cross at the foot of His (Lk 9:23+). I have to be willing to die for His name sake as a Believer. It is this that I committ myself to exploring and pursing this year. I know that growth only occurs by His working in my heart and life, by His mercy. I trust that He knows what is best and will ensure that it occurs. I can no longer hide under the blanket of the world that complains He is not enough...that if only I achieved a degree, or the most magnificient career, or was 1olbs lighter, or had the companionship of a husband...for I have tasted that the Lord is good (Ps 34:8) and I have known of the cross...He is more than enough! "Because your lovingkindness is better than life, my lips shall praise you" (Ps 63).