Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Expecting Nothing...

When I pray, I expect nothing. I don't expect God to answer my prayers. Why would He?

There are far more important things God could be attending to. Why would He give me a new job that I like when millions are unemployed and have nothing? Why would He give us more money when there are tons that are homeless and we have a brand new house and car? Why would He bless me with getting on Wipeout? He has far more pressing issues than me getting on a game-show. Right?

Well, I have always thought so. But, what if, He WANTS to do those things just because He does?!? If that were true, I would pray more expectantly. I would pray and expect something. I would pray expecting the very thing I am requesting. Actually, I would pray expecting something far better than what I am asking for, because that is how He could roll, if He chose to.
Don't get me wrong, I am not going to go crazy by asking for winning the lottery, retiring at 28, and my own personal chef. No, those things would be asking a little much. But, I can pray with an expectant heart and see what happens. I think I am growing tired of doubting God. I am tired of playing my own God. He is the freakin' God of the Universe. He created me. I am guessing He could manage to somehow land me a cool job even though it looks impossible at this point.
Okay, starting now, I am going to pray with an expectant heart. Here goes...I am really doing it. What if He doesn't answer?!? What do I do then?!? Shoot....I did it again, expecting nothing. Okay, again- starting now.....GO!

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

Is fulfillment fatalistic?

I have to rest in the fact that true and complete fulfillment resides in being in communion with the Lord. What then is the point of this earth? What is the meaning of worldly happiness? I desire true and full joy. The joy of the Lord! How do I cultivate a lifestyle that is saturated with His joy? Let me start by asking that His mercy may grant me His joy and contentment.